Warrior Babes
Will's Journal

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2000-2001
 
Entry One
 
 
I decided to start writing things down. The death of Joyce just hit me like running into a brick wall that just showed up out of nowhere. She was such a great lady and mother. I went to see my Mom even though she isn't the best she's what I have. Sure she may not notice for months that I've cut my hair or that I'm dating a girl. I'm trying to remember what I had for breakfast. I'm thinking bagel but I'm not sure. Tara had eggs that look like little boobs that wiggled in the plate. I want to write down what happens so I won't forget and have it written down if I want to recall things. Tara is beautiful as always. She has been such a big help through this. It just hurts my heart that little Dawnie has no Mom now and Buffy. She's barely holding it together. I know that she's doing it for Dawnie's sack. I want to be there for her but she's kinda pulling back. She's suffered a horrible loss and everyone grieves differently so I'll just be here for them in whatever way I can. I got an A on my test which is a yaye moment but it's fleeting since it seems so trivial.
 
Entry Two
 
 
Now that was a disturbing yet brief thought. I'm just glad that it was a robot since Buffy and Spike doing it in the cemeterary was just too disturbing. I kept the robot since it would be interesting to see how it works. I think I could fix it. I'm just curious about it and I must admit it was well made. Yes it's totally disgusting why it was made but Xander sort of had a point. Spike was so badly beaten and he didn't say who the key was. But no robot for him even if sympathy flows for him. I guess that chip has been a good influence on his and his feelings for Buffy certainly helped. It's the real deal which is so strange. What is it with her and vampires anyway? I've decided to give up writing down what I've eaten. That would drive me insane to write I had coffee and two cookies or whatever. I'm waiting for Tara to come back from class since I made plans to take her on a picnic. Just for a little bit I want to forget about the badness for a little while and have some quality time with my girl. I've got the room all fixed up for afterwards so I don't want her to see before so I need to stand outside since she's due back soon. On second thought maybe the picnic can wait.
 
Entry Three
 
 
I don't think I'll be able to sleep tonight with Tara gone. I feel horrible because we had that fight and now she's had her brain sucked by that hell bitch. I have to find a way to get her back but in the meantime I am going to take care of her. I feel so guilty about this whole thing because she wouldn't have been alone if we never had that stupid fight. I would have been able to say that spell to stop the sucking or do something to help. I'll see if I can find a spell to use against her. I bet no one will be at the magick shop so I'll go and see what I can find among the restricted books that Giles doesn't want me looking at.
 
Later
 
I wasn't able to inflict too much damage when I went up against that bitch. There has to be some way to stop her. Since I won't be able to sleep I'm going to go search on the net and maybe pop over to the library. I just need to do something so I won't feel so damn helpless. Maybe there is a spell or something to get Tara's brain back. She'll be released from the hospital in the morning which isn't soon enough for me.
 
Entry Four
 
 
What should be a happy moment is laced with pain. I got Tara back so that's good but Buffy's dead. I'm on my way to tell Angel. He deservesto be told in person. I don't know how I'm going to do it since I can't totally believe it myself. If this is a nightmare I'd like to wake up now please. I even saw Spike crying but all of us were. Maybe that's what the First Slayer meant when she said death is your gift. Her death literally saved the world which is good  but costly price to pay. There was no way that I could or any of us could drive so I'm taking the train. If I stop writing I'll start crying and may not be able to stop. This is going to be so hard. Why can't I be dreaming this? I'm living it and I don't want it to be real. My best friend is dead. She's dead and oh god Dawnie is all alone now. It's so terrible first her mother now her sister. I'm gonna see if Tara will move in with me so we can take care of her. She should be with people who love her instead of stranger taking her away. I need to cry and maybe I'll be able to compose myself for when I have to face Angel. Maybe splashing some water on my face will help.

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2001-2002
 
Entry One
 
 
I haven't written in here for a while. Things are moving along. We kept Buffy's death a secret and so far there has been no sign of a new Slayer. I fixed the Buffybot so we can keep up the illusion. I have an idea about getting her back. I haven't told the others but I've been researching spells of ressurection and think that this one that I found could work so I'm going to tell them everything. If there is some way I can bring her back I'll do it if there's the slightest chance. I can do this even though I'll be delving into some major duty dark magick territort. I'm hoping Anya will be able to help in finding that urn that's needed for the ritual. I'm hoping she can track one down through the Magic Box connections. I'm not involving Giles in this since I know he'd pooh pooh the idea. The world needs Buffy and the gang needs her. We've gotten better at patrolling but we need her. It's like a part of us died when she did. I'll never forget the look on Angel's face when I told him. They'd just gotten back from another dimension where Cordelia was a princess. Gee what a shock! I'm surprised she came back since that would be so her. I guess she's changed since she's left. I guess Angel is a good influence on her. They have their own little gang going on with the Investigating thing and all. Tara is gonna be home any minute so I'm talking to her first about this whole thing.
 
Entry Two
 
 
Anya was able to find the run on Ebay of all places. This will be intense but I'm sure I can work this. Buffy didn't die a natural death so magick will help bring her back. I left out the part about me having to kill a deer. If that's what it takes I'll do it. I'll take care of that tomorrow. We just have to get her out of that Hell dimension she's trapped in. It just hurts my heart to think of her suffering who knows what. We all need her back. The others are a bit iffy on the spell but I know they'll do it. We have to and Giles can't find out. Once we get her back he'll be just as thrilled as the rest of us. This just has to work. Well tomorrow will be the big night. I'll be tested but I'm sure I'll be able to handle it. I think I'll order a pizza for dinner tonight if I can eat. I'm just not in the mood to cook and Tara won't be back from her study group for a while.
 
Entry Three
 
 
Well it actually worked although things didn't go as planned. That was one hell of a test but she's back. I'm a little hurt that she didn'te ven say thanks. I guess Tara's right about Buffy just needing time to get used to being back. Maybe Anya in her strange way had a point about having jet lag from Hell. Who know's what happened to her and how long it was for her. She said that Angel was like a wild animal so she needs time to get back to normal. The important thing is that she's back. 
 
Entry Four
 
 
Buffy finally thanked me and it felt so good. That just mean so much to me. I didn't realize that a demon would come with the spell. They really should have warning labels on spells so a person can prepare for it. It was well worth the price and Buffy took care of our demon. Things seem to be getting back to normal. Well as normal as things get around here.
 
Entry Five
 
 
Giles came back which was great but he was Mr Cranky. I was amazing when I cast that spell and he calls me stupid and an amateur. It's a bad idea to piss of a person with this kind of power. Now that things have cooled off my brain has clicked on and I realize it was just concern but it was annoying. You'd think he'd some confidence in me. That bank was so stupid not to give Buffy a loan after she saved everyone there. Ok so money was taken but that is beside the point. Those people at the bank would have been in a world of hurt if Buffy wasn't there. So much for showing gratitude. A loan with low interest rates would have been a nice way of thanking the person that saved your butt.
 
Entry Six
 
 
I'm so glad that the whole singing and dancing is over. It was cool at first but I'm not a singing gal. I did love having Tara sing to me. I felt like I'd been kicked in the stomach when Buffy sang that she was in Heaven. I was so damn selfish and didn't want to think things through. I just jumped on the whole Hell thing and made it my mission to rescue her. I just couldn't bear the thought of her not being here and didn't stop to think how this would affect her. I have to find a way to fix things for her. I know I can do a forgetting spell. It workedn when I made Tara forget our argument. It was silly anyway so it was no biggie. No harm done. I don't like fighting with my girl. I got  busted with Tara since she figured out what I did. She didn't think it was harmless. I didn't mean any harm. I agreed to give up magick for a week since that was better than breaking up which I just couldn't bear. I'll just do the one forgetting spell which will solve everything for Tara and Buffy.
 
Entry Seven
 
 
My spell backfired big time and what a price I paid for one little spell. Tara left me which I wish was some nightmare. I just wanted to fix everything but all it did was cause all of us to lose our memories. I just wanted to help and instead everything is all messed up. Giles left which sucked since Buffy needs him now more than ever. I don't know what I'm going to do now. There has to be some way to get her back. I'm not doing too much magick. I'm so in control of things. I'm a witch so the whole magick thing is a part of it. I don't understand why she doesn't get that since she's a witch too. If only there was a way to get Amy back. I'm sure she'd get the magick thing and wouldn't be all judgey.
 
Entry Eight
 
 
I got Amy back to being a human. It just hit me on how to get her back and poof there she was. It's nice to have a magickal friend to play with. I miss Tara but I'm not going to have that stop me from having a little fun. So we went to the Bronze but after a while it got a little dull. I wanted more so very much more. Power flowing through me giving me the greatest rush. Amy took me to this warlock that gave such an incredible boosst. I was totally magicked out but that boost was such a rush. I'll be going back there again. I'm gonna have fun instead of being all mopey and gloomy. It was so strange to see Tara in the kitchen. For a second I forgot but it just hit me when I was in the shower. I'll see if Dawnie wants to go to a movie or something but I'll want to pay Rack another visit. That was such a rush so I'm craving even more.
 
Entry Nine
 
 
I hit rock bottom and nearly get Dawnie killed in the process. So I'm done with the whole magick thing since it's hurting the ones that I love. I just need to take it slow. It's like being an alcoholic so I'm joing a group. It turns out there's a support group for just about everything. I've also decided to stay away from Amy since she's been a bad influence. I can't believe she put that spell on me when I didn't want it. It made everything that much harder but I'm dealing. I guess I can understand how Tara felt when I did the whammy on her. Besides the benefits of being magick free is the lack of blinding headaches and nosebleeds. I found the nerds and didn't use magick. I just need to take it one day at a time. Xander was so right about Buffy's haircut being adorable. That was such a close call with her nearly being turned into goo by those nerds. I didn't expect to have the bad guys be human since we are so used to dealing with the demon element that we never gave humans a thought although they can be just as bad.
 
Entry Ten
 
 
My group is called Spellcasters Anonymous. We so need to come up with a better name. I ran into Tara and we talked a little. It was great to see her. Maybe this is a stepping stone for us. I know it'll take time but I still love her and I'm sure she feels the same way. It's not such a crazy thought since it wouldn't be the first time a couple that broke up got back together. If you love someone there is usually a way to fix things. Those nerds are trying to frame Buffy with that poor girl's murder. So yaye for Buffy but sad for Katrina. These guys need to be stopped before they do more damage. Hmm I need to go shopping for Buffy's birthday. I'm planning a party since we could all use a little fun especially Buffy who's had her hands full. She works at a fast food joint so why all the double shifts? It's not like she's a doctor there or something. I miss her but she's doing what she needs to do.
 
Entry Eleven
 
 
We made it through Buffy's birthday more or less. I am proud of myself for not giving into temptation. It was great to see Tara and she even stood up for me when Anya was totally bitchy. Maybe I do have a chance of getting back together with her. This is good and for the first time in ages I'm feeling hopeful and dare I say hapy. I want to take things slow since we're just starting to talk again. I so don't want to mess things up since it's going so well. I want to speed things up but I know that I have to let nature take its course. So I have to let nature take its course. Or should I say her course since it is Mother Nature which implies she and not it. So I have to be patient and take baby steps even though I want to run.
 
Entry Twelve
 
 
Riley came back and not alone either. He got married so as the best friend I was prepared to hate her. We didn't exactly get off on the right foot. That is such a weird expression. Why the right foot? Is that just for right handed people or what? I guess I'm thinking too much about something that doesn't matter. I actually kind of liked her the bitch. It certainly took him long enough to come back. I got their email address so maybe I'll write them or maybe I'll just block them so they can't email me. Oh I need to go to my meeting. We still haven't come up with a better name so I guess it's just going to be Spellcasters Anonymous for good.
 
Entry Thirteen
 
 
I can't believe that Xander's getting married. I am so happy for him. I'm going to be his best man but I have to wear the dress that Anya picked out. It is hideous. I think her brain has turned to mush. I wonder if it's too late to do the larvae thing. I'm sure that would be a big improvement. At least I'm not alone in wearing that dress. I'm the best man so I should be wearing a tux but no such luck. Anya's spending the night here. I even splurged and got her a stripper. Why not since it's her last night as a single gal. It's just a girls only affair. Good thing Dawnie is spending the night at Janice's so Buffy won't kill me. Maybe I can get the stripper good and drunk so he pukes over my dress. Oops I can't wear that so I'll get a classy tux. Ok I can't do that. What is the deal with ugly bridesmaids dresses anyway? Is there some unwritten law that they have to be as ugly as possible? I guess it could be that each bride wants to look that much better. I think I hear Buffy so I better fill her in.
 
Entry Fourteen
 
 
Well that was so sad. They didn't get married after all. The only good thing is that I got to spend some time with Tara. I'm starting to get even more hopeful that things are going to work out for us. Xander took off and no one knows where. Anya ran off too and she really shouldn't be alone. They seemed so happy. I just know they were but everything went all kablooey. My heart hurts for them both. Anya didn't even open the shop which is surprising since she loves money. I would think making money would ease the pain just a little bit.
 
Entry Fifteen
 
 
The nerds struck again. They sent a demon after Buffy that made here think we were all an illusion. She tried to kill us but Tara saved us. I was able to give her the antidote so she's back to being Buffy. I can't believe that Buffy was in an institution. I guess talking about vampires would cause eyebrows to rise and stares to follow. I'm just glad that she came through in the end. Dawnie took it really hard since she wasn't there when Buffy saw her parents.
 
Entry Sixteen
 
 
That was such a relief to find out that that girl with Tara was just a friend. So Tara saw me run off when I saw her and after I practiced too. We went for coffee and had a nice talk. Things are really going well but I can't jump the gun. I have to take things slowly since it was just coffee but it's astart in the right direction. Well it's time to leave for my meeting.   

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2002-2003
 
Entry One
 
 
Giles has been so amazing. When he took me to England I thought he was going to lock me up in a dark dungeon and throw away the key since I would have totally deserved it. Instead he turns all Dumbledore and helps me through the worst time of my life. It is so peaceful here but the women in the coven are still afriad of me. It's like they think I'll turn them into toads or something. I have learned so much and I'm doing much better. Just taking it a step at a time. I wish that they could just take the magick away from me but it's a part o fme. Everything is connected. It was so creepty to feel the Hellmouth and its very sharp teeth. Giles thinks it would be good for me to go home but I'm scared. I don't know where I belong and I'm scared about facing the others. I just don't feel ready yet and I'm not sure if I ever will. I mean I tried to end the world and I hurt the people I love. I wouldn't blame them if they hated me and avoided me like the plague. I have to go back and face the music. As much as I'd like to just stay here I have to go back since there is serious evil brewing.
 
Entry Two
 
 
I got on the plane even though my stomach was in knots. They weren't at the airport and no one was at the house. I thought I heard the door but no one was there. It would have been nice to see them waiting for me. I fell asleep on the couch and still no siggn of anyone at all. I think I'll check the school to see if I can find Xander. I wonder if everyone is avoiding me. Well I guess he should be at work by now. How strange that the school is back and Dawnie is going there.
 
Entry Three
 
 
Still no sign of Buffy or Xander but I did run into Anya. In a way I'm sort of glad that I ran into her since it was easier to face her I guess since she's demony again. Spike's insane and living in the basement of the high school. I went to see him after finding that skinless guy. My stomach turned when I saw him. Spike made no sense at all. I had Anya help me figure out what was responsible for that death. I almost thought I did it but it turned out to be a demon. That was such a relief. That demon finding spell worked really well this time except for the little fire. Since I couldn't find the others I decided to go myself which wasn't the best idea. That demon started snacking on me and I thought I was all alone. Wow I made myself  beyond invisible  so that's why that spell said Xander and Buffy didn't exist. I was so scared to see them that that's exactly what happened. They didn't leave me. Buffy even helped me grow my skin back. Once the paralysis wore off it hurt like hell. It's good to be home and not alone.
 
Entry Four
 
 
Xander took me to Tara's grave. I can't believe she's gone. We had such a short time together and then we got back together only to have her ripped away from me again. Sometimes in the middle of the night I wake up and for a split second it seems like a nightmare but then I reach out and she's not there. She's really gone and I miss her so much. I wasn't sure if I could do it but I did it. Just another hard thing to do during the course of a day. I'm slowly easing back into the swing of things. I'm going to see if I can get back into school. I'll start off slow but I think it'll be good for me since I love the school thing and I do want to graduate.
 
Entry Five
 
 
It's such a shame about Cassie. Buffy saved her only to have her die because of her heart. So sad for this girl to die before she even had a chance to live. It's so tragic and all of us just feel horrible. Her poetry reminded me of the stuff I wrote about Xander only not so much about death. We're all going to the funeral and I'll pay Tara a visit. Buffy is taking it really bad because she feels responsible. She did what she could. It's not her fault that Cassie's heart gave out on her. She'll be great for the school since she can do so much good. I wonder where those poems I wrote about Xander are. It would be interesting to read them and take a trip down memory lane.
 
Entry Six
 
 
I made a little slip but I brought things under control. I was a bit mean to that girl but I did save her from that bug thing. Anya was responsible for killing all those frat guys. Sure it was heartless and cruel what they did to that poor girl but they didn't deserve getting their hearts ripped out like that. That was a bit extreme. I just really wanted to help Anya since she wasn't even enjoying the vengeance thing which is good because that would mean big trouble. Buffy came close to killing Anya but I'm glad she didn't have to. Anya changed things back but at quite a cost. I can't believe that Xander lied to Buffy. I just wanted Buffy to stall while I was doing the spell but he told her that I said to kick his ass. I wonder how Anya is. She really shouldn't be alone right now. On a bright note I'm back in school. It's good to be back there taking notes and doing assignments. I think I'll go see if I can find Anya.
 
Entry Seven
 
 
Well the good news is that Buffy didn't end up killing Anya which is a good thing. Hmm so Xander lied about the message I sent Buffy that time Angel was evil and trying to end the world. I could just kick him for that. What the hell is that about? Ok I'll forgive him since I've done a lot worse but the important thing is that she's not dead. I guess I kind of relate the most to Anya lately since we have the whole evil thing going for us and now we are trying to get on with this wacky thing called life.
 
Entry Eight
 
 
Ok now that was a bit disturbing. I should clean out my brain with soap for the thoughts I had. I just need to remind myself that I didn't know who it was when I was having all those thoughts. Bad, bad, Willow but Xand was thinking the same thing. Well school is going really well. Things are going pretty good I guess and it was sort of like old times just hanging out at the Bronze. I'll always miss Tara because she was a part of my heart and it was like a piece of me died with her but I have to somehow get on with my life. But I'm getting along since I know that's what she wants for me. I just miss snuggling with her at night and kissing her and her sweet smile. I've mad a habit of visiting her grave so I can be near her and I hope that she's watching me and listening to me when I talk to her. The hurt is still very much there but I think it's a little better. I just have to take it one step at a time.
 
Entry Nine
 
 
I can't believe I tried to turn that guy into a girl. That was one evil jacket. At least I wasn't the only one that acted like a total moron. It just felt so real which was strange with him being in a boy way. I'm just glad that Xander stopped me in time. I do wonder if it would have worked not that I'd actually go through with it. It probably would have worked but that's the kind of thing you'd get permission for. Well I better go start that paper so it's off to the library I go.
 
Entry Ten
 
 
Well I didn't expect the evil to pop up quite like that. I guess you can't rely on evil. It certainly knew how to get to me like salt on a wound. I was fooled for a while since I was so desperate to have some kind of contact with Tara. This isn't good because it knows us and knows how to strike. I thought I was doing pretty good but this just turned me inside out. I guess progress is steps forward only to be yanked back. This had nothing at all to do with Tara. So it's starting and it doesn't want me to use magick. Could that mean something? The magick is a part of me and it's not like I can throw it away. Could I be a threat to this thing? Nah since I can't really deal with the magick and try to avoid it since I don't want it to take control again and have me go all evil again since that was scary. I don't know since that whole thing really messed with my mind which is exactly what it wanted to do and knew how to do it the best way possible. Dawn had her own visitor Joyce or something that looked like her. It's like it pealed away the layers in our brains and gave us what we most wanted along with the whole terror thing.
 
Entry Eleven
 
So we've got a houseguest and not a welcome one at that. I'm not thrilled about it but we don't have much of a choice. It's just creepy and disturbing that this big evil can override his chip somehow. It is kind of sad and in a small way I sorta feel sorry for the guy. I guess because I was recently evil myself and he is a real mess. I can get the loss of control thing totally although I'm doing better. With this evil brewing I've thought about the very likely possibility that I'd need to do magick. I'm not sure if I can really trust myself not to go all black eyed baddie again. I've done small things but I know that it could come up since this evil is really well evil. But with all of us I'm sure we can handle it but I really wish Giles was here. We still haven't heard from him. Just my luck to go back to school only to have this happen. I wonder if I should even bother with all that's going on but I'm thinking I should since I'm finally starting to live my life and I enjoy school. So self that decision is final as of this moment since I would like to one day graduate and have a graduation without bloodshed and blown up buildings.
 
Entry Twelve
 
That's just great. I tried that spell and got possessed and it scared the hell out of me. That thing was inside me and I never thought it would leave. I'm so afraid that it will take control of me and make me do things that I don't want to do. The things that thing said to me just keep replaying in my head. There is no way I can do magick since it could take control again and make me do things since it did it to Spike. I don't want to hurt anyone. I feel really bad that I won't be able to help. I thought I could handle it but I so can't. I just hate that I'm letting Buffy down. Damn I just feel so helpless not being able to do anything. I'm just afraid that if I did magick I would make things worse which I don't want. Why can't I use all this power I have? It's just inside me sitting there totally useless.
 
Entry Thirteen
 
Dear Diary
 
I haven't been writing much in here what with all the craziness going on. I remember making that vow to write everything in here but that hasn't been going too well. More newbies have been showing up so it's getting pretty crowded. It's just so creepy that the first was in the house for days spying on us. At least Buffy was able to kill that uber vamp which was pretty darn scary. I'm just so glad that she's healing since it's slowed down or maybe she got more of a beating than normal since she looked pretty bad after tangling with that bad ugly. Maybe I'm crazy but I think Kennedy has been flirting with me. I don't know how I feel about that since this isn't exactly a time to delve into dating but when is it ever really. It's strange but I guess that one day I'll have to dip into the dating pool again. I don't even want to think about that right now. I did gain some confidence over using magick again. So that is a good sign that I'll be able to control things I hope. It was a step so I may be able to be confident and not listen to any dead people I meet. That's something.
 
Entry Fourteen
 
Dear Diary
 
I'm still a bit shaky on doing magick but I'm gonna try. Kennedy is still flirting with me. Could she really be interested? Am I? I'm just not sure since it would be like betraying Tara. I still have this fear that I'm gonna lose control which I don't want. I wonder if I'll always feel this way about magick. It's a part of me so I need to figure out how to use it without it controlling me. I don't want to go to that dark place again. I wouldn't come back again. It's so frustrating that I have this power sitting inside me that could be used but I can't since I'm scared. I just can't get what the first said about me killing everyone out of my head. I know it's just playing on my greatest fear but it's so true and it just sickens me how close I came to ending it all.
 
Entry Fifteen
 
Dear Diary
 
What a day! I'm just glad that I'm me again. That bitch Amy put a hex on me. Kennedy brought me back with a kiss. I just felt guilty that in that moment I forgot about Tara and let her go. The pain of losing her just poured over me and I felt guilty since I wasn't able to save her even though I know there was no way I could have. Sure I knew in my head that I would meet another girl but in my heart I wanted to keep Tara. I just felt like I was betraying here. I know that's what she ways for me but letting go scared me since it would mean that she's really gone. I like Kennedy and I do want to be happy again and in love. I just didn't think it would happen. She is so sweet so yes I'm gonna go for it. I'll always love Tara but that doesn't mean that I can't fall in love again. I'll just see what happens since this is a kind of odd time to start a relationship.
 
Entry Sixteen
 
Dear Diary
 
Things are going good with Kennedy. It just feels so good to be happy again. Just holding hands sends a thrill though me. Dating was done but all was not well since Xander's date was a vampire. He is such a demon magnet. I wonder if that I will it spell no he liked that bug lady and mummy girl before I cast that spell. Woods is such an improvement over Synder and he's good looking. One big plus aside from the pulse is that he was born in the same century. Well I'm off to take a walk with Kennedy.
 
Entry Seventeen
 
Dear Diary
 
I can't believe how happy I am. I've even reached a point where I don't feel guilty about that. I know that Tara would want me to go on and be happy. I mean I didn't think it would happen but so far so good. I'm so glad that I met Kennedy. In the middle of chaos a really good thing happened. Ok it's under the worst circumstances but I would have met her otherwise. I guess it was meant to be since the world will never be rid of evil. Weird how life is that I meet this great girl and death is around us. Girls have been dying so a part of me does feel guilty for being happy when three of the newbies have died. Things just keep draggin on and it's just frustrating that we have no idea how to fight this thing. I did get some disturbing news from Fred so I'm gonning to LA. Yikes Angelus is on the loose. Ironically he was the one that got the sun back there. I gotta go there and get Angel's soul back. I just hope that this is a quick trip since I'll miss Kennedy. I also have to get Faith who is out of jail well broke out. I guess we'll need her and I can give her another chance since I got one myself when I went all homicidal.